Genetic ual Attraction?

Okay, well I kinda always had a crush on my 1st cousin ever since I could remember (and he's about 3 years older than me) and I still kinda think he's cute now but never admitted to anyone bc I thought it wasn't normal to feel that way towards a cousin and thought something was wrong with me. But anyways... when I was 9, my sister who was 12 at that time had a party in our basement w/ a bunch of her friends and I met this one kid there, Wesley that looked exactly like my cousin and sounded like him and smelled like him (he had strong feramones, soo does my cousin) and pretty much acted like him. And seriously, I fell inlove w/ this kid. I seriously thought I loved him. I never dated him but I was obsessed with him. I had a few crushed on other boys before but not like him but I seriously thought he was the one! and like there were others boys that I thought were cuter than Wes, but I was still obessed with him. And I don't think my cousin looks like me, neither do I think Wesley does either, but still. And all my second cousins on my moms side, I think they are all more attractive than anyone I've ever seen. And I think all my cousins on my dads side are more attractive than anyone I've ever seen. Soo I looked Genetic ual Attraction, and it said that people who have that tend to be more attracted to people that look similiar to them or what not. You think I could possibly have it? And please, don't critisize me saying "Thats soo wrong" or "Thats gross" and stupid ****. I've just trying to figure **** out, soo don't go bad mouthing me if you don't wanna help bc seriously, ur just wasting ur time and mine. Sorry I'm not a perfect person. THank you.